The state of life that I dislike

Sometimes life gives you lemon, but will you make lemonade out of it? If you ask me, I will not, I will make lemon ice cream instead, then I'll crush it and crush it till I'm satisfied.

Why am i babbling? I must be in the state where I lose my mind, my confidence and all that important to me to succeed in life.

Yes, I'm in the state where I lose my confidence. I hate this , I really do.

I have an interview this coming Sept 6, usually I'm very confident at doing challenging things, I may look horrified and jittery but then when the moment came, I am all ready full of confidence.

But today, I'm not, I don't feel the excitement, the horrifying feeling, or the adrenaline, I just feel that deep inside the confidence is dying.

Dear All Mighty Allah, why is this happening right now?

Could it be because of the stress at home?
Or the fact that I miss the State?
Or the fact that I'm not ready to live in reality?
Which is it?
What is it?

Whatever reasons it is, I will not let this continues.

I need to find a cure, and I believe I just found one

"praying and wishing for guidance"

"opening all the treasures, the old memories I have kept"

Yes, Yes ! Yes!!

To dear, Mr / Miss Confidence, I will find you, and will not again let you go.

*it seems like the internet is dying so this is it --> ~Fin~

Today Apa the fish say Goodbye

To all who doesn't know who Apa is, she is my precious little black balloon molly. She was supposed to turn 1year next week, but she didn't make it :( .

I LOve you APa dear fish,

I'm sorry I didn't visit you yesterday, i wanted to, but didn't due to some circumstances.

May you rest in peace.

Love,

Aishah

p/s: picture description, Apa is the black fish in the middle of the boat's hole.

Thank you notes...

To dear RIT's juniors

thank you for the wonderful 3 years of works for malaysian's night,the awesome graduation night , the meal, the amazing table decoration, the waiters, the "missing items" and Last but not least THe LOVE you all gave us. Thank you sooOOO soOOO much <3.

To dear graduating friends,

Thank you for leaving a footprint of each of you in my life. Thank you for being there for me, and thank you for calling me your friend.xlupe jugak thank you for the strong bond we have as a batch, the hardship we went through for Mysa events, THANK YOU dear sweet friends thank you. LOVE <3

To dear Kismis FC and BUdu sedak FC members,

I will always remember all of you, the moment someone kicked my head, the games that we played together, and all those emotional dramas on the way...Those are all precious to me, and I love you all <3.special thanks to Azlina, Anis and Alai for being there always. And thank you to Wani sbb ajak I masuk in the 1st place, although at that time, i tak pernah lawan futsal macth pun. Was suppose to be a back up, but ended up playing all the time. >.<

To Mr "Bear"

Thank you for the box of wonderful Kinder Bueno chocolate, having a thoughtful friend like you is one of the greatest gift in life.

To dear Special someone,

Thank you for being patience with me, for being there for me, for the chocolatesssssssss( i mean it! there were many), for the support and care , and thank you for those sweet moments (yesterday, and the day before and months ago).

Thank you All, for being my friends.

LOve

AIshah Kentang

MysaFC yang ku sayang

Dear MysaFC,

Thanks for the AWesome games!!!!

I enjoyed playing futsal with you guys A LOT!!!

Nanti kita main lagi k??

release stress time exam ke hahahaha

GOOD TEAM, GOOD SPORTSMANSHIP, GOOD CHEERLEADER (credit to Azlina) and GOOD TIME :D

LOve you ALL

Sincerely,

Kentang PUTAR *guling guling guling*


p/s: don't worry sugus FC, aku sayang korang jugak!!!!!

Kiasu ke aku??

Haritu ade exam Marine bio,

pastu hbs exam aku cam pasrah sbb ade soalan 10markah yang aku main *goreng* je, tak pernah aku jumpe ikan sebegitu rupe mana la tau jawapan die ape. Habis exam tu pergi la SAU cafe. Terjumpa la Joe, biler hati dah frustrated jwab exam mule la aku complain blablabla *panjang giler citer kat joe*. Nico pun ade muke die cam.."ecah frust la tu"

Days after that,

markah marine bio tu pun keluar la... aku dah cuak haram sebab lecturer tu advisor research aku, kalau dapat markah rendah mesti kena zap. Teringat dulu time fall quarter dapat B one of the exam nasib baik bukan final grade...walhal B yang nyaris nyaris A, pastu lecturer aku zap "did you study?, i thought u can do better than this?" * it sounded something like that*.

Aku cam sob3x kena ZAP ngan advisor sendiri cam kena tikam kat hati 10x.

balik kpd hari yg die bg kertas marine bio tu...(sorry ter-digress)

Aku pun tgk la markah kat kertas tu 101.5 pastu aku cam...eh tak kire lagi ke ni??

Punye la bodo aku ingat total mark die maybe 150 ke kena bahagi tambah tolak dulu segala, poyo je ambik calculator.

Pastu tibe2 lecturer aku buat pengumuman dlm kelas "the total score for this test is 102, including 2 bonus point". Aku cam ERRRRrrrrr what??????

OMG aku dapt markah paling tinggi exam marine bio yang susah haram tu??? Trus aku cover markah aku..sbb xpasal2 kang kena cop "kiasu".

Pastu markah yg almost full mark tu pun aku simpan la tak bgtau sape2, budak2 research aku yg kiasu yg dr dulu suka cakap marine bio ni paling susah la segala, tak study bole fail la, kalau bocor markah ni habis la kena label kiasu.

Sekali tadi ade meeting ngan budak research and another advisor aku (takleh bla aku ade 2 advisor, tamak gitu, due2 suke bg kerja setimbun, ops tak baik kutuk lecturer hehehe). Time tgh discuss nak buat research minggu final week, tibe2 advisor yg ajar marine bio ni pun g buat pengumuman die cakap " Aishah got 102 in my marine biology test, she might need the final week to study" TIDAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKkk

kenapala die buat pengumuman dlm meeting research .....

Pastu die cakap lagi, for the final week you can study while waiting for the machine to stop...(macam nk zap aku study 24hours a day je, walhal tak pun)

Pastu tibe2 research advisor sorang lagi tu zap aku

"OH my AIshah why?????" "102? are you crazy?" pastu kwn research sorang lagi ni pun join la zap aku "Aishah WHY??? do you have to get 102?"

aku cam bisik dlm hati "bukan aku nk 102 pun dah betul aku goreng nk buat camne, nama orang pulau ahahahhaha"

Pastu diorang zap aku lagi, look at her desktop screen (gmbr pantai putih kat pulau), thats where she live. ...dalam hati "diorang ni zap aku ke puji ni??"

confuse mood.

Akhir kata, dah lecturer pun zap aku kiasu kena la trima label tu sobssss. sobss. sobssss.

A friend

A true friend is hard to find and hard to keep.

Treasured the friend that you have now, cause you may not meet someone as incredible as he/she again.

If i'm not a good friend to you, it is because like the others, i'm just a human being full with flaws.

I'm sorry if i hurt you, i really didn't mean to.

I love all my friends they are precious to me, and so are you.

Love

A friend, a guilty one.

aku tunggu abang kering... abang lain yang datang

Pukul 10 am nanti ade exam Marine Bio, study2 teringat lak lawak jam 10pm smlm kat library.

Kisahnye begini, hari khamis lepas sebab demam panas, maka kite tak pergi la kelas marine biology. disebabkan itu notes untuk exam pun tak lengkap la, cuak punye pasal kite email la kawan kite nama die Hanes.

Biler check kat mycourses kat email list tak jumpe lak Hanes tp jumpe Haines, so kite ingat maybe selama ni kite yang salah eja nama die.

Ok so kite email la Haines ni. Sekali die bg no suruh text.

Die cakap cam ni (dlm english tp ni kite translate)

"nanti tunggu kat pintu depan "

sebab die nak pas kan notes

Kite tunggu punye tunggu, mana la Hanes ni ,

sekali masa tgh baca notes tunggu si Hanes yg tak datang datang , ade abang kacak badan tegap giler...kesimpulannye abang paling kacak la kat kelas Marine Bio tu masuk kat entrance. Pastu kite ingat die saje dtg library nk study...sekali mamat tu cakap

" Hi, here's the notes you asked"

pastu kite cam errrr....*mata terkebil kebil* aik..kenapa bukan kawan aku Hanes yang kurus tu dtg, ke aku mamai mata rabun terus Hanes jadi Mamat Tough, tinggi yg senyum Manis tak leh nk bla ni.

Pastu die pas buku tu kat kite..OMG aku salah email orang...

sebab tak nak ngaku salah email orang, kite pun buat2 la mmg saje nk email die

die cakap kenapa tibe2 email die

kite jawab "oh kite email due tiga random people, tapi awak je yang reply" walhal salah EMAIL LOL...LOSER tul.

Kesimpulannye kadang2 kesilapan tu berlaku tp takpe, dapat kawan baru...Abang comel lak tu hahahahaaha ....rupenye die budak grad student so mmg la abang kan??

kesilapan ini mungkin akan berulang kalau ade abang comel lagi dlm kelas lalalalala

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Sekian and terima kasih baca post ni

Aishah yang tgh mereng